The need to escape

There are some days when you feel the need to escape from everything. You want to lock your door, lay on your bed and just stare at the ceiling.

There are different feelings around your neck and they don't allow you to breath. You feel weak but strong, sad but happy.

You wait for a call. You keep waiting for someone to remember, for someone to realise that you are trapped in a salad of feelings. You know you're waiting for nothing, but there is still hope.
You have been there for everyone and just for once you need people to be there for you. You need a hug, a nice word, a little smile. That's all!

You need support, but can't get any because everyone is so selfish.
And then... Just then you understand what is wrong with you. You aren't selfish. You wonder how can this be wrong. In a world full of selfish people, you are unique. So, they envy you. They hate you and they wish you suffocate in your sadness and melancholy.

This thought makes you stand up, open your door and wear your personality again. Your strongest weapon is something they can't take away. Your fighting spirit wakes up.
Your victory smile takes over your face. You don't need them. They are all the same, you are different. You need your dreams and you need power to make them come true.

Your dreams matter, your humanity matters, you matter. Don't let anyone take you for granted. Fight for yourself!

Collecting memories

A few days ago, I decided to reorganize my documents, which included my exams papers, essays, old school books, New Year's cards, short stories, better said all kinds of papers.

Through all process, I redescovered lost pieces of me. As the pages turned in those old school books covered in dust, I saw my used-to-be self. In some certain moments, I felt sorry for letting go of a person who seemed to be stronger than the one I am now. But some minutes after I would have liked to punch my old self in the face.

When each day passes we feel like nothing changes, but when we turn our head behind everything is different. 

That is the moment when you fall in dispair. The moment when you see the more sociable you, the happier you, the better you and hope to catch some old sparkle from the good things left behind. Then you remember that even back then you had experienced sad things. That's life!

What I love the most about reorganizing after long times, is that the probability of finding letters writen to you by friends is way too high. Sometimes you don't even remember all those hand-writen little pieces of paper. That is a moment of happiness and nostalgia.

I love it! Makes me feel supported and loved. Makes me remember that somewhere, someone, sometime, used to like me and used to be by my side.

Fabio Volo in one of his books says that when you grow old you will live with your memories. You will eat with them, sleep with them, walk with them. So the best thing to do is collect as much good memories as you can, because those will have the most value when the end comes.

Promises, Promises

We make them and we break them, because some promises are hard to keep. Most of the time we know that we will never  keep certain promises, so why do we make them in first place?

We promise when we are happy, feeling positive, optimisic or inspired, but we also make promises to get rid of someone or something. There are some type of promises that we know we’ll never keep, but still say them anyway.

When we meet a new friend during summer, we usually exchange emails and phone numbers with the promise that we will contact and never forget eachother, the beautiful time we had together, etc., etc.. This, of course, won’t happen. NO,NO,NO!

“Your secret is safe with me!” This sentence is useless. In my country, it’s a proverb saying that if your own mouth can’t hide it, than no other mouth can.

Or this one:

“It won’t hurt, I promise” Doctors’ favourite phrase. No! Just, no!

When someone borrows money from us they promise they’ll give you your money back as soon as possible. But then they seem to forget their promise and the worst thing is you can not ask for what’s yours because they will think you’re being mean and unfriendly.

Each time our parents see our grades, we promise to study harder and harder. We promise a milion time, still we keep the promise for only two or three days.

I would like to know why do you think we make promises when we know we probably won't keep them? Do you make any of the above promises? Let me know by commenting below. 

Please, not next to me!

Some of us like to travel, and some of us don't. We all have our reasons to do so. But there is something to which we all agree... The annoying passengers. There are some types of passengers that you just don't want to have sitting next to you. According to me, these are the most annoying people when travelling. 

1. Conversation Makers 

You can spot them immediately, as they start taking as soon as they sit next to you. You can't just ignore them. They are going to ask you about everything and the thing you'd like to do in that moment is tell them to shut up, but that would be mean. Instead, you try to show them politely that you are annoyed and not interested, by opening a book, playing on your phone or just looking from the window, but this people seem to not understand. Poor you! 

2. Small Children

You may be someone who adores children and loves spending time with them, but when you have one sitting next to you on the plane, you will probably doubt your love for children and swear that you won't ever take a babysitting job. In fact there are two types of travelling children: 

• The quiet ones (this is the time to know if you are a lucky person or not) 
• The ones who keep screaming, moving, jumping, kicking. Oh, God! 

3. Space Invaders 

These people have the terrible habit of taking up all of their room, and also some of the other person's room too. They usually sit in a way, that can't allow you move your arms, legs or find a comfortable way to sit.  

4. Snoring People

I don't really mind them a lot! But when they sleep in your shoulder, that's a problem. 

5. Nervous Travellers (A.k.a The Scared Ones)

They are mostly people who are scared of flying or travelling in general. The bad thing about them is that they can make you afraid too, by telling you all kinds of air disasters. 

These are the people that mostly annoy me on a plane. I try to be as open-minded with them as I can, but sometimes it's really hard. What about you? Who are the types of people that annoy you during a flight?

The Power Of Colours

Colours are all around us. We really can’t ignore them. Colours are the first thing we see in the morning: in the walls, on our phone, our toothbrush, our clothes, our door, etc. There are also a lot of colour idioms that we use, like: green with envy, make me see red, out of the blue, etc. What does it all mean? Are colours important or are them just something we can’t skip seeing in our daily routine?

The answer is YES! Colours are very important. They even affect our mood and personality. For example when someone is sick, it is better for them to stay in a green room. Below are some of the positive and negative sides of different colours.

RED is a very powerful colour. Red makes us more courageous, excited, helps waking our survival spirits, gives us warmth, strength and energy. On the other hand, it can make us aggressive and demanding. Red can also stimulate our appetite, so better avoid painting your kitchen red.

BLUE is the colour of the mind. It is the colour of intelligence, communications, logic and serenity, but on the other hand, blue shows coldness, unfriendliness and lack of emotion.

YELLOW is an optimistic colour. It helps lift our self-esteem and confidence. It can help you be more creative and friendly, but if you use it too much it can make you depressed and feel fear.

GREEN is the colour of balance, harmony, refreshment, universal love, peace and rest. On the other hand, this colour means boredom.

VIOLET or PUPLE is the colour of the spirit, luxury, quality and truth. Negatively, it is can mean decadence and inferiority. If used the wrong tone, it communicates something nasty and cheap.

ORANGE is the colour of physical comfort and food. It shows security, passion, sensuality and fun. Negatively, this colour means frustration and immaturity.

WHITE is the colour of purity, clarity and sophistication. On the other hand, this is the colour of the cold and unfriendliness.

BROWN is the colour of seriousness and reliability. Negatively, this colours mean lack of sophistication and lack of humor.

PINK is the colour of love, warmth and survival. But it can also mean emotional claustrophobia and physical weakness.

BLACK can make you feal secure and sophisticated. It is a colour that is never our of fashion. It is elegant, stylish, formal and timeless. But it can also be a little scary.

Colours have a great power, so we must know how to use them properly and in a way that they can help us. Going to a party? Dress orange to feel more sociable. Can’t settle down to work? Blue can help you concentrate. Feeling ill? There’s green.

I would really like to know which is your all time favorite colour and why? Do you know how it affects you? Let me know by commenting below.

Reflection

Has it ever happen to you to start thinking about your life right after you come from some vacations abroad? I came from holidays a little time ago and that escape from the daily life made me realise what I am losing being afraid and not taking care of myself. 

I came home with a lot of goals to achive. And I am not sure if I will be able to complete them all. I have only two things... Hope and determination.

When I came here, I understood I was actually a loner. Nobody was waiting for me, but my cat. I understood that during this year and before I had done a lot of mistakes and bad decisions. These decisions have made my life boring and I have lost all my self-confidence. I have no trust in myself and I think I could have stopped it, if I wasn't so afraid of failing, of changes, of mistakes. I think that the fear of making mistakes makes you actually do mistakes. 

It isn't so easy getting out of this phase, when everything you do seems to be wrong or when you can't finish anything you have started. Yes, it isn't easy but it's not impossible neither.

I think what you should do is find what you like to do and start doing it. For example, writing or dancing. If it makes you feel better then it can really help. 

Friendship

Friendship has a different meaning to different people, but who is my opinion, was closer to finding the most common definition of this special word. Look at the following quotes: 

"Friendship is born at the moment when one person says to another:"What! You too? I thought I was the only one." 

By C.S.Lewis

(Someone who can understand and has the same hobbies and habits as us? Yes, that what we are mostly looking for. Well said C.S.Lewis!) 

"Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow. Just walk beside me and be my friend." By Albert Camus

“A friend is one that knows you as you are, understands where you have been, accepts what you have become, and still, gently allows you to grow.” 

By William Shakespeare